I escape my own reality...

I've reached... my limit.

Mon, 11 Aug 2003 01:58:36 GMT

I'm shutting my LJ down... and unfriending EVERYBODY from my friends list.

Thank you. It was fun while it lasted... but I'm afraid I have to bid farewell. For my final entry... I give this LJ a slow, rolling close. Sayonara... Limit.

limitsandbeyond

Oops... wala palang English ngayon...

Fri, 08 Aug 2003 01:38:10 GMT

I'm hanging out once more at the com lab in Faura... So cold here...

Haay... Does anyone know when Itchyworms will release their new album? I love their song "Buwan"...

[Edit]
17 individuals... can't even unite as one. Somebody should host a party and fast.

I'm still...

Thu, 07 Aug 2003 04:42:24 GMT

gloomy... depressed. Lately, I've also been irritated at the most trivial things... I don't know... My life feels like it has nothing else to offer but more grief and depression. I always fail to see the splendor in this paradise I call "my life"...

From Regular Math 18... to this insane, preposterous hell...

Mon, 04 Aug 2003 15:20:15 GMT

(Hover the mouse for translation...)

Vince: Sir! Tingnan niyo naman 'to o. Tama naman 'to di ba?
(Our prof and I check his paper. Sure enough, Vince's answer was correct.
It coincides with the teacher's... and fortunately, mine too.)
Math18 professor Mr. Quimpo: Ah hinde. Ngayon mo lang sinulat yan 'eh. Grabe ka ha? Academic dishonesty yan ah.
Vince (still giving all due respect...): Pero sir, wala akong black ballpen! Tingnan niyo pa yung bag ko.
(I motion him to just give it up and walk away...)
Limit: We lose!

This... is Basic Math18.

[Edit]
Living a world of lies would probably be one of the last things I'd wish to do in my life...

Losing hope...

Sun, 03 Aug 2003 16:36:41 GMT

God knows how I'll make it through this 4-year hell and insanity that I am knee-deep in...

Sat, 02 Aug 2003 05:56:44 GMT

Happy 16th(?) birthday, Crselda!
(I wonder what Vince got for her...)

Oo nga ano... Good luck rin sa mga mag-U-UPCAT ngayong linggo! :)

Huff. I was deprived of 16 points in an LT yesterday for getting the correct answer. Punyeta. And what's more mind-blowing is why the teacher keeps on wondering why more than half of the class failed... Optimism? I don't think I'll ever use it again. I don't want to argue with the teacher neither because, from experience, I always lose on arguements ith anyone.

Just in case you're interested in my Com Sci marks... Heheh.

Wed, 30 Jul 2003 07:38:01 GMT

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Wed, 30 Jul 2003 06:18:02 GMT

Indecision...
Frustration...
Rejection...
Boredom...
Neglect...
Loss of creativity.

On a sidenote...

Mon, 28 Jul 2003 16:07:28 GMT

Meron bang kayong extra LJ code..? I need it for a friend...

Damn it! My PC's being rampaged by viruses(?). Stupid CompSAt! Gave me a fucking complimentary diskette with a virus lurking in it. Mag-a-alok na nga lang para maraming sumali sa org nila, hindi pa nila sisiguraduhin?

Pop-up entry... Testing only.

I can still feel.

Mon, 28 Jul 2003 15:56:08 GMT

It's been a long time since I've felt an assortment of intense emotions like now... Swirling within me like honey in warm milk... Makes me feel alive...

Amidst everything I'm feeling, one emotion stands out from the distorted, indistinguishable muddle...

"Haay. Happiness..."

Magic: the Gathering...

Sun, 27 Jul 2003 11:31:43 GMT

After I gained some victories from battling with Niño's loser deck by using my own, my fascination for the craze was finally realized....

I am not late...

Fri, 25 Jul 2003 00:17:23 GMT

I'm currently here in the computer lab. Marge and I have been fruitlessly attempting to make our n inputs into this:

*
***
*****
*******
n

(where n is the height of the triangle)
We were unable to make this appear on our computer screens for the past hour or so. I suck at "for" loops. Mathematical equations na lang sana... Suko na kami. Heheh...

(Wah? Pwede pala 'yon?)

Okay...

Thu, 24 Jul 2003 15:23:03 GMT

My PC's fixed again... It must be because of one of the countless kicks I've given it...

Sidestepping, only 2 hours worth of classes are scheduled tomorrow. Ohohohohoh. I love Fridays... if it only starts early. Say, 08:00. I won't be late... I won't be late... I won't be late... I won't be late... I won't be late... I won't be late...

"Study gimik" on Sunday. ...Mia invited 4th year high school survivors (Limit, Vince) to a "study gimik" this Sunday. I'll aid/tutor my friends in their preparations for the nearing UPCAT and ACET. I decided to attend... This is for you girls... Hopefully, I will stil be able to reminisce on the items, topics and coverage of the UPCAT. I'm afraid I have forgotten majority of the subjects covered... but I'll try to help out whenever, wherever I can. I wishfully, will be able to boost the girls' Math percentile to mine.

98 Mathematics percentile!!! Mwahahahahaha! ...so why was I shoved into Basic Math18 again?

Ghh. Vince's not coming with us... again, like in EK. -_-(···) Oh hell.

I need a new PC...

Wed, 23 Jul 2003 16:16:10 GMT

My devil of a brother had been screwing his hard disk in and off my PC. Because of this, my PC is now screwed up.

It hangs while running one of the most primitive programming languages in the world... It takes around a minute to load an F-22 flight sim created in 1996... It creates weird error messages... It can run Counter-Strike 1.4 and Warcraft 3: Frozen Throne but it can't fucking run my Java program properly...

1 Gigahertz my ass...

*my bro takes a bite out of my newly-cooked Spam*
Limit: No!!! My fruits of labor!
Hah! La lang.

"I learned today... that I need you more each daaaaaaay...."

Mon, 21 Jul 2003 10:41:40 GMT

Clarissa, JP (Camiguing) and I hang out in SEC-A... silent and unconscious of each other's presence.
Limit: ... ... ... ...anong gagawin niyo kapag nakaka-miss kayo ng tao?
JP: Wala.
Clarissa: ...wala.
Limit: Wala? Wala...?
*We become silent once more as I continue to gaze at the clouds in deep thought...*

Sidestepping, I just realized something incredible these past few days: I love programming. I recently made a "Guess the Number" game and a "Math Flash Cards" game where you have to add, subtract, multiply or divide two random integers. PROUD! I typed each code without any aid from my father, a programming guru, and I also completed it within a short time.

Hh... That's all.

Friday night:</b> (I was late for class yet again...) Went to "Badong: A tribute to a National Artist" in grade school so that I will be rewarded a free cut for my Lit class this Friday. Pitched in on household chores. Programmed the Flash Cards game.

Saturday Morn: NSTP (outreach) from 07:00 to 15:00. Household chores from 18:00 to 21:00. More programming.

Sunday: Slept till 12:00. Household chores. Had haircut. Programmed FlashCardsPlus where the integers are now sometimes negative and sometimes two-digit. Slept.

Recap...

Sun, 20 Jul 2003 14:41:46 GMT

"Both our maids left yesterday. There was nobody home when I arrived today... so I blared music from my stereos. Hehe! >:)

"When I say 'fuck’, you say 'you'! Fuck!!!"
"YOU!!!"
"Fuck!!!"
"YOU!!!"

Heheh... Hopefully, that'll teach the neighbors some sensitivity to the F word..."

"Our two maids left, due to easily avoided miscommunication. Their responsibilities had been inherited to us... and had been stacked above our regular homeworks or team projects. Our workload was multiplied... and as of now, after being awake for nearly 17 hours, losing energy at an unexpected rate, I feel like my muscles are about to give its last heave."

Christ. Pagkatapos pa talaga ng NSTP... Oh well.

Speaking of NSTP...

"Block N bonded a little, thanks to the lengthy and unnecessary breaks that the teachers of Bagong Silangan bestowed on us. We had a few laughs and shared jokes, riddles, whatnot. For a brief glittering moment, [N] finally shattered all their barriers and welcomed their blockmates' company. Even though our bonding session lasted momentarily, N, for once was a single united block. *sigh* I wish Mutya and Clarissa were there.

“On the other hand, I myself made some progress in bonding with some of my blockmates. Peter, Jason and I shared stories about our high school dissection experiments to our frustrations in life. We shared our psat experiences could fortunately relate to each other, despite of the different worlds that the 3 of us came from."

Weeks ago, I received a rock-bottom grade of 35/100 in my Math18 LT. My 2nd was no better... 29/100. I grieved over my catastrophic failures... even crying a tear because of them. All of my worries evaporated after I learned that the LTs were both nullified!!! Yes... The scores of those LTs are now meaningless... for a price. (I) was yanked out of Math18 regular course and thrown into the humiliating depths pf Basic Math18... along with majority of N! Yey! At least marami akong kasama.... Wala lang.

Tue, 15 Jul 2003 08:13:14 GMT

I horridly failed the second MATH18 LT and THE FIL11 LT but
I PERFECTED THE CS21A Quiz!!!
Hah. Two LTs are nothing compared to a petty quiz and yet...
I feel so happy! I hope I ace the next one.

Shit... I was late for school again...

Fri, 11 Jul 2003 04:23:27 GMT

If it wasn't for the noisy bulldozer turtling across our house, I would have been at school MUCH later... I squinted my sleepy eyes at my wall clock trying to assure and reassure my self that it's already 09:35 (5 minutes late for my first class). When I finally arrived at school and sat down for my ENG11 class, the bell rang. Wonderful. So much for having English today...

Huff... Next time, I'll just join my brothers in their 07:00 trip to school. God knows what I'll do till 09:30, but at least I won't be late... ...I think.

Anyways, HAPPY BIRTHDAY, SATAN (my brother, Dom)!!! July 10th 2003, Dom turned 16. He and Rico got a 640x480 reso digital camera (Rico's birthday is on the 14th). Lucky them. (Haay... Wala na namang masulat na kapanapanabik...) The bell just rang... I'm outta here before I'm late again...

Blargh...

Wed, 09 Jul 2003 04:02:36 GMT

(Bored at school... Heheh...)

I was still awake when the brownout at around 01:30 two days ago... busy checking email until everything went black. The first thought that came to my mind was to grope for the small green flashlight (similar to what JP gave me before) because "the old tooth fairy" might come. Heheh.

Placing my ear near my brother's door, I realized that he was still awake. I invited him to look for the emergency light downstairs which I placed on the 2nd floor hallway after I found it. I lit my mood lamp and a candle to illuminate my room. Minutes later, the glass where the candle resided, shattered because of the heat. I grabbed my mug, filled it with water and paced towards the broken glass to douse the flames. I splashed some water... tapos lumaki lalo yung apoy. Haha... Parang firebreather effect. (I forgot that I clean my mug with alcohol instead of soap. May natira pa siguro...) I just slept only to be jolted awake by the lights and fan minutes later...

The next brownout came yesterday at around 17:30. Natulog na lang ako nung 18:00... and woke up just in time to go to school today. 12 hours of sleep... Pathetic...

(Hmmh... Still bored...)

... ...want to try and headshot a guy with a cap? ·_·"

=e-
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/'\

Haha...

Vigor is burning...

Mon, 07 Jul 2003 16:46:43 GMT

Nothing's going to keep me down. Not CS21a. Not Math18. Not problems. Not even you...

Huff...

Sat, 05 Jul 2003 16:42:03 GMT

(Err... it the new cursor working...?)

Nothing feels more relieving than making your simple Java program work after hours of debugging it...

I might have a pair of car keys as my 18th birthday present... but...

Wed, 02 Jul 2003 16:54:13 GMT

...the possibility of me failing the Math18 LT just increased. Nabali ko pa yung bolpen ko dahil sa pagmumuhi sa sarili...

Marge (looking at me in surprise): O? ...ang buhay nga naman...
Limit: Heheh... Nakakainis eh...

...I reflected on myself in a chapel... It's been a while...

Posting from a computer lab in CTC...

Wed, 02 Jul 2003 03:40:59 GMT

(Hehe... Entries made at Ateneo are becoming more common nowadays...)

I had tennis this morning. Played against a classmate... just passing the ball to each other. Astig. Medyo mababa nga lang akong pumalo. Sa tabi kami ng court kaya hindi ko alam kung tatama yung bola sa net...

I'm not surprised that Egyptians regard cats as gods...

Tue, 01 Jul 2003 16:45:30 GMT

The "Faura Hall cat" slept on my lap this afternoon... Haha...

JP: Tara. Akyat na tayo (sa pangalawang palapag).
Limit: Wag muna. Magigising eh.

I'm always a sucker for cats... ·_·"

Wahahaha! I am able to make forehands and backhands already! What I lacked was the flick of the wrist... Now if I can only make myself more mobile...

Math18 Long test today. Putsa, parang high school...
BAGSAK!!!
... ...yata.
... ...huwag naman sana.

Week 2 ends...

Sun, 29 Jun 2003 17:16:47 GMT

(I can't even believe that I'm counting...)

Tennis tomorrow (When playing against the perimeter wall of a neighbor's house, NEVER overestimate your opponent's height... The neighbor's dog slobbered on one of the tennis balls... and fuck, I forgot to mark which one.). Math18 Long Test1 on Tuesday.

I actually started on a paper that was not due on the next day. That's something I should be proud of...

Well, wala lang talaga akong masulat. It's just one of those bland, school weekends, I guess.